The more I read over Edward's resolutions, the more humbled I am. I realize how much more vile I am than what I thought. I know I am a sinner, but these have really helped me to see myself for what really is inside.
Allow these to sink in:
6. Resolved, to live with all my might, while I do live.
7. Resolved, never to do any thing which I should be afraid to do, if it were the last hour of my life. (I am resolved to never to do anything I wouldn't be doing if I knew it were the last hour of my life) How many times have I done something and thought of this afterward?
8. Resolved, to act, in all respects, both speaking and doing, as if nobody had been so vile as I, and as if I had committed the same sins, or had the same infirmities or failings as others; and that I will let the knowledge of their failings promote nothing but shame in myself, and prove only an occasion of my confessing my own sins and misery to God. How often and how easy is it to look at another individual and say their sins are worse than ours. They might be a murderer, rapist, thief, adulterer, etc and we say I have never done any of those things. But for the grace of God I would have done all those things and worse. Lord, may I be continually drawn to repentance, convict me of sin, and change my selfish heart.